The One Word I Speak in the Middle of a Crisis

I chucked out what I originally wrote on abiding this month. It didn’t have the honesty I wanted to put in the piece. Something kept blocking my words. Last week I went to visit a dear friend. On my last afternoon in town, we sat and talked for a couple of hours about all types of things. S ... [Read More]

How I Found Happiness on my Search for Wholeness

Because I’m happy, Clap along if you know what happiness is to you.” -- "Happy" by Pharrell Williams The Merriam-Webster Dictionary defines happiness as a state of being happy. But what does it mean to be happy? What is a state of happy? I looked at the wide array of synonyms the dictionary pro ... [Read More]

To the ones who have watched a beautiful dream die…

It is always what I thought I would be. It even said so in my baby book. Eighteen months: She is already a little mother. She cares and cuddles and loves her baby dolls. When I was nine, my grandmother gave me a doll cradle I would keep near my bed, and I would change my favorite doll into pajamas ... [Read More]

The Great Preparing

I carry four extra pens in my purse – in case the first one gets lost or doesn’t work or doesn’t make it back to me. I like to have multiple backups, not just one.  Without consciously preparing, I lay out my clothes a week in advance. If someone says, “Let’s go on a trip,” I begin sketching an itine ... [Read More]

A Red Paper Heart Changed Me

White knights, Mr. Darcy and roses defined love for many years to me. Who doesn’t dream of being swept away in a tidal wave of passion? My 30’s are fast ending, and I no longer stare at the all-important finger, longing for someone to put a ring on it, longing to be chosen. I still hope marriage is i ... [Read More]

In My Darkest Moment

I was 24 years old, and I was afraid of the dark.   A year earlier, I had found myself the victim of a stalker. A man I met in person only once became obsessed with me, and for nine months, he followed me, sat outside my bedroom window at night, and even broke into my apartment and stole my ... [Read More]